Another Sleepless Night...

Greetings. Now, imagine this scenario. Me, with a laptop infront of me, with coffee and an empty plate on either side, and near the plate my Rynathiol, Otrivin, Panadol Cold & Flu and my hanky :) Yes, I am sick. Second time in less than a month, by the way! I asked, I wonder why I'm sick. Earlier on this week, i was on my usual bus to school and as soon as i stepped off, it started raining. No need to say that trusting my luck, i had no hood or umbrella. So thats what started it off. Obviously, careless old me doesnt care about putting on shoes or a bath robe after a shower, just to make it worse. So i havent slept well in 2 nights, meaning ive been sleeping during lessons for the past 2 days. And now due to my careless actions, im stuck at home for the weekend with nothing to do but watch dvds and blow my nose.

Coming to today's subject: Disappointment. So as the people who read my last post will know, I had a concert last Monday. And believe me, i discovered a whole new meaning of the word boredom. Since I've reached my last grade in piano, i was one of the last ones to play. So i had to endure around 50 people playing before me. When the time came for me to play i was confident. However as soon as i sat on the stool i blanked out, and my hands were shaking, so as you may have concluded, i made quite a few mistakes. Obviously i wont be putting any videos up, because even i cringed whilst watching it. And when i finished my piece, i was so angry at myself that i just sat down all depressed and stuff. So im sure that in some way or another, youve all gone through a feeling of disappointment. Not getting expected results in an exam, not winning some competition, some guy/girl that you expected something out of, but got something totally different. Its always been happening, and its going to keep on happening, for a purpose. Speaking for myself, I know that the next concert ill have, im going to work twice as hard so i wont get nervous! I think that it happens for a reason that you find out that a guy is actually not who you thought he was, cos he could have been such a two faced person that he would have broken a girl's heart twice over (sorry boys, but i wont be talking about the girls, since we're such an amazing gender :D). In a way, i see disappointment as protection for the next time. Im a very optimistic person at times, and i always look to the bright side of things. You didnt get good results? So what. Try again. I always believed that without hope, a person is nothing. So like, remain hopeful in God, cos believe it or not, He's the best kind of Hope that you can have! :)

AND PLS PRAY THAT I DONT GET SICK AGAIN!

Time to take meds, Tata xxxxxxx

Good Memories? Or Mistakes?

Good afternoon:) Currently watching Frasier and eating cheese puffs after having a hell of a huge pizza from Pizza Hut :) (Yes im a huge pig). Today's post may be a bit strange, but i think that i should be honest, and share what i really feel. So it was recently said that us, as Christians should not over-indulge and go with as many people as possible, for example if a girl went with more than one guy in one night, and vice versa. Now, yes i must say on New Years eve many people went with eachother (and by went with i mean getting off; nothing more), and i must admit that some people went overboard but i have to make 2 points about this:

1. WE ARE TEENAGERS, and 2. WE ARE TEENAGERS WITH HORMONES!

I have to be honest, during the whole year, some people are 'trapped' with their responsabilities of image and behavior, and when that special night comes (like New Years Eve), and with a bit of alcohol, everybody has to explode some time! As teens, we are put under so much pressure to live up to what our parents and our schools want and expect from us. But guys, give yourselves a break, cos we are teenagers and mistakes are made! How do we expect to learn without making mistakes? I mean, i do acknowledge that people went overboard, maybe even myself. But we dont need the extra pressure. I mean, we have school, extra curricular activities, parents that lack sensitivity (well at least mine are like that), so what we do with our friends should be exactly what we want to do! Well thats what i think, its ok if you dont share the same opinion, but at least you know :)

Like yesterday, i went out MAL- BUDDY, rephrasing: Nikki and myself went out with an old buddy, Big Matt. And we had so much fun! I had my first Jaggerbomb (jaggermeister and vodka red bull) and it was hilarious! Taking photos of girls with horrendous boots:)

The final stage of the jagger bomb:

Doesnt it look scrumptous? Anyway guys, im off cos nature's calling loudly :)

Two things:

1.Guys pls pray for my dad cos hes doing medical tests at the moment and pray that everything's clear,

2. Pray for me as i have a piano concert tomorrow, and this is the piece im going to play:

Tata xxxx

A Wonderful start :)

First thing on the agenda:
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU!

First blog of 2009 baby! Now I can start telling you about the most amazing New Years eve EVER! I am currently playing with my pet on Facebook (Pet Society), and listening to the New Years day opera concert (my dad's an enthusiast), and yes its torture listening to high pitched voices when one's hungover :)

My NYE began like this: I started getting ready at 6 (shut up all of you it takes time), and went to my friend Angie's house at 7 to do my hair. Then we all went to a friend's house (his name's Glenn), drank a lot, and went down to the party we were all so excited for; ok maybe i was just excited but whatever! It was at the Bay Arena, with performing acts from all the top DJ's, and with a DJ from abroad known as DJ Meck. And i must say, i dont think i ever had a better time partying! The funny thing was all the weirdest couples hooking up, and yes they were entertaining to watch! But on the whole, it was a stupendous start of a fantastic year ahead!

I had the funniest countdown ever, as Amy (the bestie) and i held hands as we screamed for the last couple of seconds of 2008 :) And obviously we all got our midnight kisses xD On the whole, one hell of a night to remember :)

And i shall leave you as i'm watching Frasier on Paramount, and im cold! Enjoy your New Years lunches and stuff yourselves till you explode!

Until next time x

A new dawn...

I'm in the best mood possible today, cos its NEW YEARS EVE! Just so you can all know, i've been waiting and waiting for this day for such a long time its sickening! I really wanted to go to a party, and well here it is! Even though its nothing special (we're going to Bay Arena to watch DJ Meck play), i'll be with all my friends and thats what counts right :)

So i have no idea of what to expect of this new year, but i have a couple of new years resolutions up my sleeve ;)

1. Lose some weight

2. Become better in piano so that maybe i can get a distinction in my March exam

3. SAVE MONEY!

4. Hopefully, but highly unlikely, stop smoking

5. Become a Maths wiz so maybe i can pass to second year :)

Yes. I have dreams. Ah i forgot about being a better aunt to my beautiful niece Ella :) Here she is...

Isnt she the most heavenly thing you've ever seen? Anyway enough about her. So this past year, a lot has changed in my life. As in, i've made a lot of new friends but lost some in the process, but on the whole, it was a memorable year :) The people who are my age (born in 1992) remember that faithful month of doing our 'O' levels, and doing a Maths exam whilst its raining outside, and after that very same exam all you can see is a sea of girls crying their eyes out! Yes you might have realised that i have a horrible problem with maths, its a bitch and i can never understand it. I had an ok summer, must say i didnt spend enough time with my friends though. We all started a new phase in our lives, Junior College. I must say its fun to meet so many new people.
And at our school, i say its basically a party all day with lessons involved!

Some photos of this past year...

When we left our beloved St Joseph School.....

Our Social! 18/06/08

England..Mud Sliding :)

Ah yes, going through all these photos has made me realise that it was a good year after all.

I'm sorry but this is going to get cut short, cos my mother is being unreasonable and she wants me to practice some piano.

Hope you all have a fantastic New years!

By the way, take a look at this:
http://nothanks.blog.com.mt/

The person who wrote this emailed Swarovski asking them to make a raven out of crystal, with the hope of them sending her one as thanks :) Enjoy!

My first blog...

So guys as an intro...My name's Vicky and this is my first blog! Today is boxing day and i did absolutely nothing...i spent a day watching movies...including Seven Pounds (fantastic), Van Helsing (ultra predictable), and half of The Phantom of the Opera (watched it before and got very annoying when my dad started singing along to all the songs).

So basically i dont really know what to write in these things, i guess its like an electronic diary. So you know when you feel that angel devil feeling in your heads? That is exactly what im feeling right now about something pretty trivial but hey its important to me...the future. Im sure you've all wondered: what the hell am i gonna do with my life? some people live life chasing after a dream that keeps slipping out of their grasp...but for me its different cos my question is more on the side of faith..who do i believe in? where is my faith focused on? I attend Y4J (youths for Jesus) and people my age that dont know what this is are very quick to criticise, and all they say is that Y4J is a load of BS and people who go there waste their time, or go for a flirt. Well guys, YOURE PARTIALLY WRONG! People who may know me are probably saying what the hell is she saying, cos Btw guys, i smoke (alot) and i drink as much as you all! but to me believing in something has nothing to do with trivial habits. Because i can be the worst person in the world when it comes to being good, as in i can smoke and drink and fall for any temptation that comes my way, but i can love the Lord with all my heart, and nothing can change that! Obviously refraining from things that can harm me is always better, but it doesnt change the fact that i love God and He loves me, and all of you out there that dont know what the hell im saying, this one's for you: people that go to Y4J arent aliens or freaks or whatever, we're normal people, i go to a normal school, i have a normal family, i do normal things that someone my age would do, but i prefer to live my life knowing that when everyone leaves you, I always have God by my side!

For the past couple of months i have been asking myself if christian groups are the right thing for me, cos i cant bear the feeling of being such a hypocrite when i go to Y4J and then i go smoke and drink shitloads! So i said, is it right that im giving such a horrible example to people that see me out and say like she goes to Y4J and look at her drink?! I hate this about people that they feel so free to criticise others! People that go to christian groups are facing the ongoing battle of these bitchy people that have no life and they cant wait to say shit about these groups, just because theyre going against the flow, and trying to help us live a better life.

Put yourselves in my shoes for just a second, imagine 2 different lives. One life is filled with all the fun in the world, drinking all you want and never having to look over your shoulder, cos life is so carefree that you can do whatever you feel like doing with no responsabilities whatsoever. The second life, however is faced with responsabilities of christian image and behavior, maybe with less fun involved, but with hope of a better future. What would you choose? Remember, im 16 and i long for crazy nights out and the sensation of fun. Sometimes i say, I wish i never even heard of God, cos life would have been so much easier never needing to choose, just taking the easy way out. But then i say, if i never met God, how would i be now? Ive been going to Y4J for around 3 years, and through this ive seen a lot, made many friends and lost many, and it has helped me heal from certain things, and also taught me how to deal with them too if they crop up again. Btw guys, my dad had (technically still has) cancer, and meeting God has helped me deal with this on a personal level. To me, God is like a rock, there to lean on but doesnt make you lean on him, its totally my choice if i want to have God by my side, and my choice only. People can impose it on you, but you make the decision to take it all in.

Believe me guys, ive heard it all from everyone. A person who was once close to me couldnt take in the idea of a christian group, as he has gone through a lot in his life, and to him, God was just 'there'. He used to tell me all sorts of things against God and Y4J, and he was extremely convincing at times. But i always had a little voice in my heart screaming: SHUT UP!!! and also telling me that i knew what i believed and no one would change that. I went through a rough patch with God during this time, but when i returned to him, it felt like i was never gone! God welcomed me back into his arms, and guys, nothing has ever felt better knowing that through it all he still loves you! its like when you fight with a best friend, but you know that everything is still gonna be ok after, cos youre too close to have a serious fight!

Anyway guys...youre probably not reading this anymore cos it bored you to death but even if you are, i dont really know what came over me but i totally opened my heart with you, and i hope you can appreciate it :) Now i better go as I am very late and im going to get killed by the best friend!

Au revoir !!